| Had an odd month really... still not smoking... though I had a lapse one drunken night... had four =S hey, if you'd have seen the hot topless IRISH guy you'd have taken them from him too... I even got his number hehehehe... though Dixie got his mobile number and still talks to him... anyway... most people know my drunkeness... sickness stupidness... the normal... and at Dixies house, I'd never met her family before! Woops!! Her brother was nice to me though... so that was pretty cool... may stay round hers sometime... Dunno...
Ho Hum.. right so... this John dude... after two times of not showing told him to fuck off... though he thought we were engaged and he said he loved me even though he'd never met me! WTF?! Oh well lol...
So... I met Mark... another online dude... he was nice enough... VERY childish though... still in his college pranking stages, where it's cool to phone telephone boxes and watch people answer it and laugh... pathetic really... anyway... I told him I wanted to remain friends and now he's throwing temper tantrums all over the place. *rolls eyes* MEN!
Then... there's Rich... He's lovely... I'm kinda seeing him... kinda... so that's good =) We had a great time, lots of laughs... cuddles, and yes I kissed him on the first date... not bad not bad at all... in fact... fantastic! =P
He's a cheeky bugger though... Just my type... and such a geek it's adorable!! He inks the single cell animations... strangely like John... Except John made FF games... not single cell ones... but yeah.. he might teach me =)
What else has been going on... Oh I might quit my job... I hate it... it's a load of shit... I get in early most mornings, sometimes work late and rarely take lunches... the building is moving to the majenski stadium so it'll cost me fuck loads of extra money to get there!! Around £120 a month to get to work... though my driving test is on the 21st! Eek! Lol... I know I'll fail... I'm crap. XD So yeah...
Going to Speedway Friday!!! =D
Seeing POTC Saturday!!! =D
Seeing Rich Sunday!!! =D
Going to Speedway Monday!!! =D
That's all I have to look forward to... No one exception of Dixie and Gareth seems to even want to come see me nowadays... especially with Martin being a twat... seriously you don't want to know...
Oh David may be moving out... which is a good thing... I'll be happier when he's gone...
Oh and I've finally found somewhere I can express how down I get.. it's another website full of people who have been what I'm going through... they're all really lovely... though sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming with what some people go through...One of them is someone I work with but she probably knows more about the things which have gone on in my life than most of you... I think only one person really knows it better than her... and she hasn't spoken to me in over a year...
Hmmm anyway... it's an update... | comments: Leave a comment   |
| Well I was having a good day, I went to speedway yesteday, loved every moment. Exception that Greg fell off... and then they had to restart and Crump won... bastard!! Wanted Greg to win!! We went to Cardiff milleniam staium...down the back stright... saw the woman who sings holding out for a hero, got it on my phone, though you can hardly hear it over the crowd hehe...
Today I got asked out on a date, by a very good looking guy... He's from London... yes an online guy... but anyway... we spent well over an hour on the phone together... he's really funny =)
He's a bit of a bad boy, he has a motorbike *giggles* and he's a hacker (he does it so he can fix problems in sites)... really smart... he helps design final fantasy games, aka plenty of cash in his pocket... he's nineteen, he's lovely... but alas he may or may not cancel said date which was on Tuesday... cause he thinks some people I talk to will corrupt my mind and hurt either myself or him... so I don't know what's going to happen... I hope he doesn't cancel... =(
Although if he does... I think another guy online is interested called Mark... but who knows...?
Oh and it's been twelve days since I've had a ciggy, I'm dying! =P | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Ho Hum... what's new what's new... I'm getting a new laptop... I'm writing this on my old laptop... dudeyness... Internet EVERYWHERE... in the house... (s) Can't seem to get MSN but oh well... rooms tidy... passed driving theory... uhhh.... seventh driving instructor coming up... BSM where being bastards so me and mom decided to change from them... moms getting good at playstation... =S uhhh getting on very well with a guy called Nick from work... shall see how that goes... going to speedway with him on Monday... Reading Racer's are now called Reading Bulldogs!!! HOW CRAP IS THAT... though they beat coventry bee's (best team last year) yesters... even though they lost on Monday... When I can drive I'm going to follow them accross the country like Ma an Pa did when they were young... they went six nights a week!!! Though they met each other at speedway... heehee, hmm... what else has been going on... I have a tidyish room... saw Tash last week, have yet to have got photo's back... hmm... uhh.... KPI's at work have been a nightmarish experiance!! They totally suck... Umm... Oh and Martin's a bastard... I spent two hours last night stopping him from killing himself AGAIN!!!! I just know the one time I don't he'll do it just to spite me... *sighs* I can't wait to move... anywhere away from here, new friends, new job, new life... may even move to another country if I save up enough cash....
Oh well...
I'm done...
I guess.... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| This PC is a bitch, restarted when I was updating here... sighs...
anyway... me and Martin lasted an intire weekend this time! *rolls around on the floor laughing* Ah well... we decided it was destined for us to just be friend... but knowing us... that means until the next time lol. Typically, I end things the day before valentine... but oh well... I'll have to... as Martin's mom says, 'look out for some talent' heehee. She's fab.
Well that's about it from me... Toodles! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I just worked out something rather creepy... I like harry/sev slash fics... but I also like harry/sev father/son fics too... how wierd... =S
Oh well life goes on...
Oh yes... new ambition in life, no more office work ... well after I've finished this job anyway, need to be eighteen. I'm becoming a bar maid, taking management and health and safty courses, becoming a manager of a pub and then eventually owning one... tis my new game plan... I thought of it last night before I fell asleep =S but now that is what I want to do... I am going to talk to my cousin Zoe about it... she did that... exception of buying a pub... but she manages one and lives above the pub... I'll just have to see how it goes... to manage a pub I have to be like 25 though... so it'll take a while... but then I have to do courses anyway... so we shall see... but offices are too much stress for my taste. And yes I know, there's washing, cleaning, bills, re stoking, people to serve late nights, food to work with... and that'll be stressful... but it seems a hell of a lot better than sitting in a stuffy office all day!! lol | | comments: Leave a comment |
| If you don't know what squee is you are no fangirl!! :O
I TOLD YOU HARRY IS GAY... they've gone as far as making a music video for Harry and Severus:
http://www.angelfire.com/wizard2/itmusthavebeenlove/
It must have been love...
Trust me to find it =P
BUT YAY!!!
I don't know what I prefer though... I kinda like Ron/Harry at the moment...and the obvious of Cedric/Harry... and Draco/Harry... and Severus/Harry... and James/Severus... and Tom(or Voldermort)/Harry... Seamus/Harry, Dean/Harry, Blaise/Harry, Lucius/Harry, Sirius/Harry, Remus/Harry, Sirius/Remus... Crabb/Goyle(not even lying there are some real sweet ones out there...) Fred/George/Harry,
Fred/George (yes... tis very good... twisted fangirl grin) Bill/Harry, Charlie/Harry... Severus/Remus
I think I like all male characters with Harry... =S
Exception of teachers... with the exception in that exception of Lupin and Severus... Though I have read an odd... Hagrid/Harry by mistake... JUST WRONG!!!
SQUEEE!!!!!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Hmm, I have recently had a discovery. I talk to Martin on MSN and I feel depressed, I talk to him on the phone I feel incredibly happy, if I see him I'm content, If I don't I worry about him. If I text him I get stressed out... strange huh?
Also I have ginger hair, lol, blonde gone wrong tecnically but I like it, cept the top which is bright golden blonde, which when I asked my mom if it glowed in the dark I recieved no reply... suspisious no? Got around twenty-twenty five really nice complements though... even from people I rarely talk to, don't get complemented much, obviously! lol So it was a real confidence booster. Hopfully will get the right shade of blonde within the next three weeks, lmao! Blonde Inga, Now all I need to do is become skinny and get a sweedish accent, *rolls on the floor laughing* Although I am eating healthier now, grapes is mostly what I eat now... grapes and cuppa soup. TeeHee, well I needed a hug... even if it was from a mug!
Smoking update... cutting down doesn't seem to be happening yet... EKK!
That's about it... cept I'm overworked... stressed and keep getting really down for no reason. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm so very very extremly confused right now... I want to read a normal het pairing... this NEVER happens... I'm so confused!! =S | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Hmm... I found a very interesting chat room the other day... and strangely... everyone gets attention... *giggles*... I like it... meeting new people... tis fun.
Uhh other than that not much has happened... Dixie is becoming a stalker of a celeb... me being proud of Tasa and lots of playing Nania on PS2 with mom...
That is all.. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| Been a whille... not much to update really been out on a couple of work do's gotten totally plastered!! EPP!!! David was at the last one so he saved the day and looked after me... I don't think I want to get so drunk that I need to cling onto someone and throwing up in the streets of Reading... =S
Danielle's fault not mine!! And Norio's thinking about it... and David's and Miranda's... I was good and didn't buy ONE drink! Did that the week before as well! LMAO! That was Sophie's fault though... crashed at hers... she's lovely the only way I could go out was if someone would take me in... my parents are letting me do all I like!! BRILLIANCE!! Draw back is no more lifts... ='( Always a catch...
Went to Janet's wedding (Danielle Wicks mom) well the after reception thing... saw Tiff Cane and Kat woffington... which was interesting... my mom was really bitchy about what Kat wore actually... said she's such a lovely girl but she ruins herself with her slutty clothes...
Uhh... Someone has finally taken over Gillian's job at work so I'm not all on my lonesome anymore. Andrea's really cool. She's pushing me to be better and it's really helping me a lot!! I think I'll learn a lot from her over the next year. She also told me that after the NVQ and my contract is over that James (my boss) has told her that he will offer me a full time job! Doubt I'll take it though... I'd only be staying for the people...
Oh yeah... my mom and brother found out I smoke. They're dissapointed but weren't too bad about it... haven't had one since last Saturday though... so all is good... I want one though...
Uhhh what else has happened... not much really... Christmas was normal... was all good until Dave started being an arse... which normally happens he did the same on mom's birthday as well... he's got me a stero for my car for xmas so I can't really complain lol. It was a rather dull xmas... I've been ill practically the whole time! :'( lucky I had time off work really... I'm back to work tomorrow though and I'm still not up to par. Oh well... then I'm off till Tuesday... I like this time of year lol... even left work early by two hours last week!!
Got Harry Potter PS2 game for xmas... can be more than one player I've almost completed it with the help of mom... we were on it eight hours straight the other day!! That's bad I know... but it's fun!! =D Got around £120 for xmas so I went on a bit of a spree yesterday... got Angel Season 4... HOW COULD CORDELIA DO THAT!?!!!!!!!! Grr... already half way through that... heehee... um got T.A.T.u CD's both of them... lol um... shakira - Laundry Service and Savage Garden... my taste in music is a bit strange right now huh? Got Two love hina DVD's one Fruits Basket DVD eight Manga books and I'm also ordering more off amazon... those books are WAY obsessive... I love them.... Uhh... Teachers Series 4 and Holes... I think that's about it... oh a writting book... I don't have time to write on my laptop right now... or to go online either... this is the first time in weeks... I'm too tired when I come in from work and when I try someone else yells at me to get off... pain in the arse... either that or someone is already using it!!
Anyway after the spree me and mom saw Cinderella Panto at the Hexagon... the ugly sister's were fantastic this year! It was a bit different from the normal panto... I'm not sure if it was just me... but it seemed better somehow... *shrugs* Cinderella has always been my fave panto by far! Jack and the beanstalk a close second... HeeHee...
I think that's about it from me... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Okay so I'm stupid.. but I'm back with Martin... again... yes I'm going to get hurt... but I can't find myself caring! Gah... that's what love does to you I guess.... but I'd rather have a couple of months happiness and a couple of months hurt than to just have nothing... and hey maybe this'll make me less stressed and help me quit smoking!! (gone up to six a day NOT GOOD!)
Also have a temp in work, she's really nice, good to have someone to talk to...
Also got a curry night, a girly night seeing Harry Potter after going to the pub and going to Riley's with work people... should be fun... I hope, getting on really well with Miranda, she's as dirty minded as me... just think backwards flags and poles... oh the induendo's!! We have a right giggle!
So... yes ... what an update... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower
of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE
to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat
fear in your readers. You love to poke their
brains with logic dealing with the darker side
of the human mind and character. Truly
surprising and a true individual, you'll do
ANYTHING to create a scene. :)
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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Nerdslut
What's your sexual appeal?
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I never even knew this exsisted... a nerdslut? DUDE!
You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Diff quiz, diff explination, same pic, same soul... *Rolls eyes*
Sadistic Boogieman: Torture, terror and chaos, all
the tools you love to use. Yours is the most
random and confusing type of villainy, and few
seem to understand your rhyme and reason.
Often a bit of a lone wolf, few are willing to
work with you for long, and then they generally
try to keep you on a short leash (though it
does not often work). Sometimes you end up
serving others as a henchman, but that rarely
lasts for long and usually ends badly. You
kill and terrorize for the mere pleasure of
doing so, and generally you do not have a true
interest in power or leadership. For you this
is all fun and games, not a job (though on
occasion it can pay quite nicely). The world
will never love or understand you, and you
prefer it that way. Of all the villainy out
there, yours is generally the darkest and the
one that scares people the most, because very
rarely does it make sense. Insane rampaging
tends to be your specialty. Famous Comic Book
Sadistic Boogiemen include The Joker, Venom,
Omega Red and Stryke.
What Type of Evil Super Villain Would you be? (images)
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Ohhh fun
Internet Obsession
What's Your Obsession?
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woo
You're a natural born trouble-maker. You hate
authority and do everything you can to get
around the law, or in some cases, break it.
Naturally stubborn, you hardly ever sway once a
decision is made. Your nature is fiery and
courageous, and always out-going. You love
attention and usually have kinky fetishes
you're not afraid to explore. People either
love you or hate you.
What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Sounds about right. Kind of =S
Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.
What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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Oh nice pic...
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...
You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.
Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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Your Life Analysis:
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score came out low, and this indicates that you need to make a holistic change. What you're doing is not working. You must focus on the areas that pain you most and fix your determination on improving them. Also, seeking external help is not an indicator of weakness but one of strength. And remember, there is always time to turn things around. (Read more on improving your life)
Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is rather low, which means that your mental state is not in tune. Learn to filter out the noise of everyday life. Unplug, relax, read a good book. Take up a new area of study. Simplify and focus your mental energy and your mind function will improve. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.
Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have a very low body score, indicating that your physical health is not in a good condition. You must redouble your focus on improving your body, through nutrition, exercise, and stress reduction. Bodily damage accumulates, so do not delay your healing. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.
Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is dramatically low. This means there is great potential for improvement. If you are feeling a hollowness, consider realigning your beliefs and changing your outlook. Doing so will contribute to greater peace of mind. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.
Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. You scored at the very low end for friends and family. This means that your social network is weak and not functioning. Consider re-establishing old bonds as you work on forging new ones. You will be greatly rewarded in return. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests.
Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.
Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I owe myself another £100 as Martin is single again! She broke up with him... lol
*coughs*
Anyway.
HP4 SLASHYIST MOVIE EVER!!
There is some Cedric/Harry's going on, it's all over fanfiction.net, OMG how slash was that movie!! I was SOO glad I wasn't the only one to pick up on that... I now have several Cedric/Harry ideas it is a new fav pairing... oh god Daniel Radcliff... looks good... as does Rupurt Grint and the dude who plays Cedric... it's quite annoying actually... and they make it all Ron/Hermione goings on... which I hate... NO RON/HERMIONE!! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!! Hermione is with Pansy, Ron is a loner, Harry is with Cedric until the forth book and then with Draco... mildly with Ron. James is with Severus, Lily is with Sirius or if Sirius is with Remus, Lily is with Lucius... Dean is with Seamus, Crabb is with Goyle... Fred is with George and Charlie is with Bill uhh... yes... anyway... basically everyones either gay or a lesbian... or getting together with their brother... Ah Weasleycest... fabulous!!
Anyway...
HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE ROCKS MAUDEYS SOCKS!!
A fabulous 10/10 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I bet myself £100 that Martin would be over me and get another girlfriend within two weeks...
I won. Ten days down the line he's got someone else...
*Sighs* | | comments: Leave a comment |
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